"He also said the 3am call was a total accident, and he canceled it when he realized he tapped on my name instead of his buddy's. That would explain why it only rang once or twice. Kinda bummed me out to hear that. I was hoping that he was missing me and called because of that. Oh well. "
Don't think about things like this. Although I can tell you he probably called you on purpose and hung up.
Keep doing what you're doing. You notice he's still blaming you and the marriage for HIS issues? Don't take anything he says seriously unless he actually apologizes and takes responsibility for his actions. His idea of "growth" is BS. It's called maturity. You take responsibility for your own actions and everything that happens as a result of them.
The fact that he says he wants to see what's out there shows he doesn't respect your feelings. It's all about him. It's not until he actually says that he will do the work that things will change. He's not willing to do the work.
Continue to look and smell hot around him. Go out and do things for yourself.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
