waiting for the tides to change

[BFloat]

25 - thank you for the much needed hug!

I did email my MIL back telling her she was welcome to come here and that I didn't feel up to going out to eat (especially w/ the kids).

I had my moment of sadness today on my drive home back from S's school. It was family literacy and I spent some time in S's class reading to him and then attended the assembly they had afterwards. I started thinking (and this is all part of my problem!) that H is so uninvolved and seems to be ok that way. There doesn't seem to be any remorse or sadness.

I read about others post where their spouse's engage in these R talks and express things they were unhappy with. With H, he has not mentioned anything specifically.. Just that he wants to be independant and stand on his own two feet. To see what's out there. He tells me he respects me.. Doesn't know where he would be without me.. Sigh. But what does it all matter? It is what it is.

I spend a lot of time repeating.. God, I leave it in your hands... I can not change anyone but myself.. I can only control my own choices..

Is this an ice cream day? Maybe.