I get a message pop up on Skype on my phone. It say's message from P. "Get on Skype.. NOW!!" But he is offline by the time I see it.
So I email him and say "Got your Skype message. You sound mad. Whats wrong now?"
He answers that it must have been an old message (and upon checking I see it's from Jan 8th.. Skype is such a weird program.. not sure why it showed up today)
So I don't probe as to what the hell(o) was wrong back on the 8th. And I ask him if his return dates from A-Stan are pretty much the same as last time we spoke.
He simply said and reiterated the approx. dates.
I left the convo with a very brief "K. Keep me posted so I can give the storage the 48 hours notice to pick up your truck. Have a good nite."(it's dinner time there)
He replied: "I will keep you posted and update you once I have concrete timings, Have a good day at work"
I did not respond.
This was a 180 for me because I didn't say any of the sh*t that I usually would IE: I miss you, miss your voice, etc.
This tiny, insignificant interaction caused so many emotions. I was sad, and deflated because I think it's only natural that people on this board will have a fleeting moment of "Maybe everything will be okay!! Maybe he will bow over with apologies and beg for my forgiveness, beg me to take him back" But then you know with the logical part of your brain.. that is not the case, so maybe thats why I felt sad after.
Funny, since Thailand he has been so cold that back then I was yearning for 'crumbs' of kindness. Now I am just yearning for crumbs of recognition.
Ugg. Detach detach detach.
But I tell you DBers... what I would do for a crystal ball that would tell me what the heck it's gonna be like the night he gets here, will it be volatile? Will it be peaceful? Will he claim demons took over his body and now he has been fully excercised of said demon?
