It's Over Now

[fireman]

Thanks to both of you. I admit I don't know the lingo and abbreviations here yet. We went to the temporary custody hearing today. It was a tough time for both of us, but she was ok when it was over and I guess in a way I was too. I am not ready to accept that it's over, but I know it is. She wants it to be and says that her heart is completely out of it now, and even if we went to counseling she is not going for the sake of working things out. She said she would go only to work out problems that we may have that would keep us from being decent to each other for the sake of our son. I'm not sure why no matter how good my life gets, I find reasons to screw it up. I had it all. I really did. And moving on is something that obviously millions of people do, but I never thought I would be here, and it's intensely difficult. I wish she would have taken this slowly and just stayed separated for a while and see what could have happened.