Together since we were 15...Part 3

[Jenna333]

I guess I feel like he's testing his feelings for me. He wonders if he could be happy with someone else. That makes me mad I just can't talk to him about the R at all anymore. Each time he gets closer to saying he wants to come home, but still doesn't.

I wouldn't want him to come home right now, so I'm also dealing with those conflicting feelings. I would want him to if he wholeheartedly wanted to. I asked him why he brought all of that up if he knew he wasn't ready to come back s d he said he misses me and feels more like we could be together if we both 'get our sh!t together'. I feel frustrated. Help! He said my detaching made him feel like there was no hope. I made it very clear that I'm not waiting around for him and he said he doesn't want me to wait. I told him I feel I'm starting to move on and he said he understands. I don't get it! If he gets all emotional and thinks of coming home and freaks at the thought of me with someone else, how can he let me go? He seems very infatuated with the woman I'm becoming. I stupidly asked him if he'd want to date me and he said yes. I'm not open to that unless it would be exclusive, which it wouldn't be. Why is he testing us like this? It's so unfair.