waiting for the tides to change

[BFloat]

Purg - hahaha.. There is still plenty of crying!! But not as frequent and I am able to calm down a lot sooner than about a week ago.

As for MIL.. I dont expect any insight on H from her as she and H have not seen eye to eye for a while (since kids.. She doesn't always agree w/ H's parenting skills which has been a huge issue w/ them). I do want the kids to see her since she is their grandmother and she and I use to be close (before kids because I supported H). We haven't had a bad relationship.. Just not the same.

I'm afraid I'll be tempted to say "he's like his father! Lying, selfish b&$tard!

My FIL is actually very loving but.. Had a history of having multiple affairs which finally ended his marriage to MIL. He left.. They both moved on.. But today he still has the hope of getting back together w/ my MIL. Drama drama drama.

Ok.. How am I going to GAL tonight w/ the kids at home? I am trying to plan an affordable spring break getaway for them and I. It will be the first family trip I'm planning w/out H and maybe the first one w/ out H in 12 years.

My gf had written me a note a couple of days ago which I read often to remind myself to keep going. I've been meaning to share it because I think it would apply to many of us.. It's directed to me but I truly believe it represents many. Ill post it when i get a chance!