Forgive me for not going through the whole thing. Can I simply give you a big validation for the entire post above? By the third paragraph, my jaw was to the ground...
I also have to give a generic, no one can make the decision for you. You are back here and you need support and that's understandable...
But I hear something else in your voice that I suspect you are afraid to say...
Are you prepared to let go of piecing right now and go to LRT?
