You have some of the most experienced members posting on your thread. There is so much great advice here for you to begin to work on yourself.
This journey begins by looking within. There isn't a magic bullet for this mess. It takes work, time and patients. A lot.
As 25 said, time to get busy.
Below is a link to a inspirational speech from Rocky Balboa to his son that I saved at the beginning of my sitch. I don't remember who posted it. Maybe it was MrBond.
Me:45 ExW:48 M:04/97 3 Bombs & 2 ReCons 1st BD 11/10 D Finalized 4/20 D-16 S-14 Going in one more round when you don't think you can. That's what makes all the difference in life.~Rocky Balboa
