Sorry you find yourself here fireman. All is not lost. You need to get DR book ASAP and read it. I will also advice you to post in newcomers forum. It has more traffic. Did you break up with OW?
M 53 D 20 Separated 6/22/11 moved out 10/24 Together 26 yrs Married 16 W Filed for D 7/21/11 Served 9/6/11 D final 8/28/12
“Failure is not fatal, but failure to change might be.”