I didn't get much sleep last night because my allergies were acting up. I kept coughing and coulnd't catch my breath. My husband comes rushing in with a glass of water, but I already had a glass on the nightstand. The coughing continues, and he rushes in again to make sure I'm okay. Asks if I need anything - even offered to go the store at 1 am. I think this heightened my anxiety and made me angry (I wanted to yell "You jerk! You want to act like you care how I'm doing NOW? After you've broken my heart into a million pieces." But I didn't). But the anxiety of those thoughts did make my coughing fits worse. So needless to say, I had to sleep sitting up, and didn't get more than a couple of hours of sleep.
onyourside2 - Low self-esteem has always been an issue for me so these kinds of lists are never easy. But here goes:
1. I went back to kickboxing after 3 years off. I'm getting stronger physically. That's going to make me look very hot come summer. ;-)
2. Since the bomb was dropped, I've lost about 15 lbs from not being able to eat. Not good circumstances, but you're looking at someone who couldn't lose 1lb a month, 2 weeks ago.
3. I'm learning to cook from scratch. I could cook before, but most of the stuff came out of a box. I get joy when I see a dish I made come out right, and people get to enjoy it.
That's about all I have right now. I'm tired, which makes my sadness worse today. *Just keep swimming!*
