Thanks for the reply. A little discouraged by the not so many save marriages but such is life. That is out of my control.
I see her everyday only for putting my son on the bus. He really likes me doing it. So I'm sort of in a pickle there. Very brief interactions. But I 100% hear you on that. This is the "cater" part I was speaking of. He also likes me bringing him to his after school activities. So it does stink from that aspect. Trying to do what is best for kids. Remember this is a "trial" (lol I know) and the D bomb not dropped yet. Accept in heated arguments when still at home.
Thanks for tips on mindfulness. Surprised its learned behavior. I'm sure it has something to do with my awful upbringing. I'll research more into. I know this is a 180 area that I need to work on for sure. Not only with R but other aspects in my life. I've always thought the sky was falling. At work if layoffs were coming it was always me first. (in my warped mind)
Really enjoyed the story man.
This must have been tough:
to be in a position where it didn't matter to me whether my M was saved or not... got it.
to not be obsessing about 'her' .... got it.
Thanks again for replies. They help. They show me some of the good positive strides I'm making and areas I need work.
