Even though it was H's night to be in charge of the boys, I ended up having to help.... The baby ended up having to go to the ER last night b/c of a sudden, rampant spreading rash. We got home around midnight with a diagnosis of roseola (but they took a culture for Scarlett fever and results won't be in for 24 hours.)
Does this count as sleep??
12:45: baby finally falls asleep
1:37: baby crying
2:15: baby crying
3:23: baby crying/vomit clean-up
4:26: baby crying
5:47: baby hungry/crying.....he decides to wake up for the day!

H and I took turns calming him down, but we both still woke up when he would start crying. I'm really glad H was here last night to help. I can only hope that he had a passing thought like: "gee, I'm glad [purg] is here to help tonight, this would be too hard to do alone.... This must be what's it like for her when I'm gone."
IF he had any thought like that, I will never hear of it.

In my 'zombie' state of mind this morning, I'm still reeling from the emotional bullet from last night: that my separation papers are going to represent the end of my marriage. I'm not sure how to deal with this fast approaching hurdle- I'm still stuck on the last hurdle: he's ready to start dating and oh-by-the-way it's my BF!

After I put S6 on the bus, I hope to get a nap!


M-31, H-31
T-9, M-7
S-6, s-20mth
sep 8/1/11
ILYNILWY 11/29/11
Creating separation papers.
Discover H has feelings for BFF, she does too 1/11/12
H moves out 1.20.12