You've been getting a lot of support from some top members here.
I'm guessing you are feeling anxious and are full of anxiety. Would that be correct?
We all get moments, especially early in our sitchs, when we get into panic mode for one reason or another. As time goes on, these moments will get less and less.
One great way to help this is to have a number of GAL activities in our back pockets so that when we have moments of doom and gloom, we can reach into that bag of GAL and DO something to get our minds off the sitch.
What are some GAL activities that you are doing or would like to do?