Sometimes I wonder why I bother talking to my mother.
I explained the decision to my mom and she was all like, "Why are you giving up, if you need money we'll find a way. You need to see that boy and he needs to know he has a family here too," x, y, z this that and the third.
Just told her that I was done. It's not just the financial and emotional strain this has caused me over the past year but it's like...why burden my mother with that. I did what I could and it got me joint custody, a more flexible visitation set-up and the child support which we haggled and argued over the past few months is manageable. So what if I have to be more restrictive on my own money...its for my son so there is no question about it. Just hated that she used it as a tactic to kind of force things her way but it was negotiated and we came to an agreement.
I couldn't drag this out any longer. I wanted it done because I wanted to really focus on my life and focus on being a father and with a looming divorce over my head, I couldn't do that. Something had to give so after a year I fought for what I really wanted out of the matter and this is where it got me.
That doesn't mean I give up. That doesn't mean I stop being a father. I'm well aware that down the line, I could go back into the saddle and fight for full custody, but that's money I don't have right now and I realistically don't believe it's in the best interest of our son at this time.
Just needed to vent this out...responses are welcome as always.
