Val, just wanted to say that everything you wrote in your reply to JS...I feel all of it, too. Every bit. You're not alone in experiencing those thoughts & emotions. So if you have decided to go dark save for business or emergencies because it's the best thing for you, I support it fully.
If your W truly wants to recover the R with you, she will do the work necessary to get it (and you) back. If she doesn't after you step away and start traveling down your own path, then it really wasn't ever meant to be.
