WAW told me she doesn't want to be married pt3

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25 I also forgot. One night we were at my mothers house. It was a family dinner or something. My sister and brother in law were separated. My W and my brother got into an argument regarding my brother in laws mental state and quitting his job. She was stating he was depressed and needed to be on meds. My brother was saying that she didn't know what she was saying and he should be fine just suck up whatever was wrong and work it out. My brother was insulting my W because she is a psychologist and can recognize the signs. Now I did put a stop to it so we could leave and go home. My brother did come outside and apologize to my W for the argument. The next day he asked me if everything was ok with my W. I told him NO and ripped him apart, cause he thinks he knows everything and how he insulted her to her face.
She thinks because I didn't say anything that night in front of her that I didn't protect her and she no longer felt safe in front of my family. In hind sight she is right but I did talk with him the next day and I don't know if she believes me or not.

On another tangent. Got a face to face interview next Tuesday with Aetna to work in there call center. Of course, my luck, my W sends me the typed breakdown of what is being paid. I don't know if I can afford to leave my families business. I will have to make it work though cause I do need something new. My life feels slightly stagnant.

At dinner on Monday my mom questioned if I should leave, again looking at the benefit of the whole family. I told her how can I still work in a place that I hold a grudge against everyday I walk through the door, knowing full well that this is part of why I am in my current predicament. I take blame for not asking for help in the past from them and being afraid to ask for extra money. I stayed even though my W asked me to find other work. Because of this I don't get to put my kids to bed every night or see them every morning. Not what I want. From typing that I guess I made up my mind that I need this new job.

Shoot for National Geographic fell through. Somehow a miscommunication on there part. So I get to see my kids for the next 4 days.