waiting for the tides to change

[BFloat]

I feel like I'm going to cry again!

S5 was a little quiet in the car ride to school but denied anything was wrong. When we got to school, he and another boy raced to be first in line and S came in second. And then he had a meltdown. It's so unlike him! He is always so happy and cheerful when he gets to school and sees his friends. Actually, the meltdown at school was second one today. He had one just prior to going to school.

When I asked what was upsetting him so much he said "I don't know". I just told him how much I loved him and that i would be right there after school. This is killing me.

There are moments now where I think, even if H came back now, would I be able to forgive him for the heartache he has caused my babies?

Just had to vent!