I'm breathing.... Trying to remain calm....

I called H at work to let him know about the doctor appointment this morning, he didn't answer. I text him to call when he had a chance- he called 5 minutes later from his cell. It was completely quiet in the background, and. I car noise either- my mind started wondering here he was in the middle of the day.
I didn't ask the question I wanted to ask: where are you? that was really hard.

I relayed to appointment to him, and he's going to have to adjust his normal plans for this evening (which means not going over to OW's house!) but I'm sure they'll be on the phone all night while I gone. Grrrrre

I still really want to know where he was at when he called!! I know I'm not supposed to ask, and he's even said that I don't have the right to know about his private life anymore.... This is really hard for me to do. (it's kinda pathetic!!)

Ok, had to get that out of my system


M-31, H-31
T-9, M-7
S-6, s-20mth
sep 8/1/11
ILYNILWY 11/29/11
Creating separation papers.
Discover H has feelings for BFF, she does too 1/11/12
H moves out 1.20.12