Ok, I dont' think getting H jealous worked too well. H didn't get home until 1AM!!! This is the latest he's been out, ever! H's soccer games were supposed to end at 9PM and he said he'd stay to have a couple of beers with team mates. I know I shouldn't have, but at 12:45AM I texted H asking if he was ok. For all I knew, he could have gotten into an accident or something, especially since he was planning on drinking. H texted back saying that he was on his way home. When he got home, I didn't say anything, but I did look at the time. H's immediate reaction: "What?" I just said "nothing". Then H asked how the place was where I went; I said 'good'. I asked how soccer was, he said 'it was ok'. That was it. I found it very hard not to say anything. I know the "old" me would have made a comment about him getting home late and I was trying my best to be quiet. I know that getting worked up about it won't help and that I can't control what he does. I have to accept it. I'm still irritated though. Terrible night sleeping.
Finally had another IC session. It felt good to get some things off my chest. Not sure if I was able to take anything from this session other than her advise to keep myself distracted and redirect my thoughts if I feel hurt/angry/upset. I told her about this wonderful community and the support I've been getting. Most of the stuff she told me is in line with what I'm getting here, so why am I paying for counseling again? I guess it does feel good to be able to talk to someone in person though. I must say, I didn't cry as much as I expected.
I guess it does feel good to be able to talk to someone in person though. I must say, I didn't cry as much as I expected.