We stupidly went in the same car to the court house and to get D from school. I was feeling strong and like I was not in danger of crossing boundaries at all. Well, of course, since we were around each other for an extended period of time, he brought up the relationship. I didn't want to talk about it. I was firm on that. It FREAKED him out. He asked me if I've kissed anyone. I told him I'm not answering and that we said we wouldn't talk about our personal lives anymore. He freaked! He said he can tell by my demeanor that I'm moving on and that I've slept with someone. When we got back to the house to pack more clothes for the kids, he grabbed my phone from my purse! He was pissed that I wouldn't give him answers about my personal life. He said, "Tell me or I'm going through your phone." I ripped my phone from his hand and told him to get out. He followed me and started crying and begging me to put him out of his misery and just tell him that I've slept with someone. I didn't. I stood firm and told him it wasn't his business and that when he left me he lost the privilege to know what I did with my life. He continued to follow me and cry and beg. He said he didn't expect me to move on before him. He said he's still in love with me. He said, "You want to know what I did all last night? I lay in bed and thought of you all night, missing you." I wasn't reacting much. He was just a puddle on the floor. He kept saying he didn't expect to feel this way, that a part of him wants us to be together but he's scared we would revert back to how we were. He said I'm turning into the girl he always wanted, "and it's becoming more and more appealing by the day." It was just craziness! He said he needs to find a way to let me go because this hurts too much.
Bottom line, he still doesn't know what he wants, so I don't want to hear it. I told him just that. I told him if he still doesn't want to try to make things work with me to keep it to himself. He asked me for a hug and I wouldn't hug him. He's finally seeing what it's like to lose me. He said it's so much harder than he ever thought it would be.
He called me when I was driving to school and apologized for grabbing my phone and asking those questions. He said he won't push/break boundaries anymore.
Wow! What should I do?
M & H 25 T 9 D 7 S 4 Bomb 11/11 Confused about feelings for me. Bomb 12/11 ILYBNILWY, moved out 2-1-12 We're exclusive & dating each other. 3-4-12 H moved back in. 3-31-12 I deserve better. I'm done
