Working on myself.... working on myself.....

still looking at getting a job, continuing my weight loss goals (20 pounds of 40 gone already!), getting back into church, branching out to develop new friends, trying things I've never done before (pole dancing class, skydiving and I want to pick up golf in the spring).

I have long term^^^^^goals, I need daily goals. I need something to distract and occupy me while I'm at home with the kids.

Just being in *this* house is depressing. This was our first house that we bought. It was supposed to be our place to raise the boys for at least the next 6 years (military life- you know you will move at some point.) H didn't want this house, but he "gave in" (as he says) and let me have this one. Since the bomb, he's said several times that he "hates this house", "I never wanted it anyways", "I can't wait until this isn't a burden anymore." It really hurts to be in this *house* because it's no longer a *home*. Even though we have some great memories here, I can't wait to get away because every room, every wall is a painful reminder of what's happening in my life.

Ok, off I go for a little while..... S6 just curled up next to me on the couch and said he wants to cuddle... this rarely happens, so I'm going to take advantage!


M-31, H-31
T-9, M-7
S-6, s-20mth
sep 8/1/11
ILYNILWY 11/29/11
Creating separation papers.
Discover H has feelings for BFF, she does too 1/11/12
H moves out 1.20.12