waiting for the tides to change

[BFloat]

I can't seem to find anything to get me out of this funk. Even watching my kids makes me sad. I am completely immobilized by my grief and don't know what to do.

I don't listen to music at the moment because I am very affected by it (I played piano for years and have always been very musical). It makes me cry and the happier stuff doesn't sit right at the moment.

What has happened to me? I can't believe I'm here! And so weak!