waiting for the tides to change

[purgatory]

It sounds like you handled it as best as expected. I think you acknowledged his need to discuss money, but you also gave yourself time to collect your thoughts/emotions before discussing details.....

I'm proud of you (for what it's worth.)

I HATE when they bring up a 'we need to talk about [some kind of reminder about their desire to D]. I always feel nauseas and my heart starts racing when I read the emails or hear the words from his mouth. My H has said (since the bomb) that he's in no rush to do this.... Yet, since new years, he's been on my case about talking to L and expressing frustrations about how long this process takes. I wish I could find a way to slow things down

Don't beat yourself up about having another cry, your han and you are I pain- nothing to feel bad about. Have you found any cues that help you get out of the funk fast? 25 recommended creating special playlists on your iPod that coordinate to the mood you are (or want to be) in. When you need to have a good cry, play the 'cry' list and make a promise to yourself that you will put those emotions on a shelf after you're done crying. It's not easy to learn how to do that- but I'm getting better.

((((BF)))). I really feel for you and I'm sending you hugs and comfort, I hope they find you.