know we said we wouldn't e/m anymore, but this is just too long and if I wait to talk to you, I'll forget.
I'm scared. I do feel like we have turned the corner and are now heading towards each other instead of away from each other. Honestly, I don't know if we are miles apart, or closer than we think, but all that matters is we are heading in the right direction, now.
But, BIG but, I am so scared b/c I think of this like when I bought the house on Martin. I knew I was doing it for the wrong reasons and even said, "I'm afraid I'm buying this house just to buy a house". Well...I know I need to trust my feelings, but I worry that I'm heading back to you b/c in my heart I never wanted to leave and I know that us, the family unit is the most important thing in not only Bella's life, but ours also. But, it crosses my mind, am I coming back just to make things easier?
I'm pretty sure I'm not for that reason, I'm just "thinking out loud" and thought I'd get it down on paper. Sorry for rambling...
I don't know how to respond to this. Can someone help me?
