I know the hot rushes and fast paced heartbeats you're talking about! It's all the adrenaline running through you- I still haven't found a 'trick' to get rid of it
Well, I upchucked... I felt much better after. I feel a little ashamed that my own emotions could affect me that badly over something that is I guess kind of small in comparison
I'm sorry you have to know about the POW on Skype. Especially since you are worried about him, you think you kinda deserve to have him at least acknowledge you. BTW, don't feel bad or guilty for having concern for him- just because of your current sitch (and unknown future) with him, doesn't mean you can just turn off care and concern for someone in a war zone.... I'm about to face that in June
I guess I feel guilty because I feel if I don't show concern, or shove it down, and it turns out he is sitting in Germany with injuries wondering wth I am .... (God forbid) what kind of person does that make me? Yet I know realistically the whole "I don't love you, miss you, or want you in my life" email give me the right to walk away. But I will just quietly hope all is well when I hear the bad news from there.
Grocery stores can be fun- not the most exciting GAL, but it gets you out of the house! My H and I used to make a guess as to what the total would be- and the loser had to put groceries away..... I do it on my own now. (wow, I didn't realize that memory would hurt so much... Ick.)
