Living in the trenches....Thread #5

[Navyguy]

KD:

I'm sure there are reasons...W has always thought I am too quick to judge others. I would say that I do it far less than the average person...W is just extremely sensitive to it. I don't think that's necessarily a bad thing, and I go out of my way to try not to do it (a 180), but the occasional slip-ups and/or misunderstandings are going to happen.

I don't know exactly why she thinks things aren't quite right... She is still very much living in the past, and refuses to see what she has today (and has completely blocked out the many, many positive things from our past).

I honestly don't know what actions I could take to allow her to trust me more...I have been walking on eggshells for a year now...and she "pulls the trigger" at the SLIGHTEST slip-up every time (I would say there's been one every 2-3 months). When she pulls the trigger, she starts telling herself what an idiot she is for coming back here and giving me a chance and thinking that things could be ok again. That is what she told me the other day. I cannot be perfect...she gets pissed at me if I judge someone for 5 seconds...yet I feel like I'm standing in front of a judge, jury, and executioner 24/7.

Sorry if I seem negative here...but I'm a bit stressed right now and need to vent a bit.