I've stayed off the boards for a while, evreything is the same old,same old
I feel like a mouse on a running wheel at times, same things going round and round!!
We have gone from no contact, to her calling me 4-5 times a day, mainly about nothing important, just feels like an excuse to call me.
A few weeks ago, after about 5 calls in one day, she even apologised for calling again?, I asked her what was going on between us?
We don't talk, we have both moved on, fine, I get it. Then it starts again, the calls, the laughs, the constant contact, its really nice, but we both know whats happening, we both know we love each other deeply, she said she understood what I meant, but just enjoyed us getting on, I asked her how OM would feel if he knew, she said he was really nice, and she would not do anything to hurt him, she talks about him as if he's a good friend, not the love of her life?
I said we both know how we feel, its just between the 2 of us, we look at each other and I know what she's thinking, again I got the past brought up, my faults and the pain, again I accepted it.
I said that maybe we should just go back to no contact, its easier for us both, and the kids are not getting any mixed messages, my son had asked me if we were getting back together, we were getting on so well!!!
She said she understood and agreed it might be for the best.
Tough love for sure!!!
That was 2-3 weeks ago, it worked for about a week, then she called about something kids related, now we are back to the daily calls, she even laughs when she calls now, she knows she is doing it!!!
Om is back for around a few weeks, so I expect that the calls will stop for a while!!, I'm not going to mention anything, just leave it be
I don't call her, except to return a missed call, which I usually miss on purpose.
When I have the kids she calls my home, she speaks to the kids, then asks to speak to me, so I can't really ignore that call!!!
She has commented on the changes in me, how I'm a good person, a good parent, she was even talking about a past time when I was drinking, and ended with, thats all in the past now though!!, maybe slowly she is coming round, but its all a very slow process, but I just have to maintain being me!!!
