waiting for the tides to change

[BFloat]

Updating so that I don't go crazy!!!

H is still here. Upstairs sleeping. I thought he was going to leave earlier in the afternoon as I heard his alarm go off. He came down, had something to eat.. And then went back to sleep. He came down while kids were having dinner because S went up to get him. S is very clingy because I'm sure
he knows H is leaving today. Actually surprised that H hasn't hightailed
it out of here to enjoy the quiet solitude of "single" life. Gosh! I'm not bitter at all!

I am paralyzed. Stuck. Someone please shake me out of this! I literally want to pack my bags and run away with the kids. I just want this feeling to go away!!