So after our chat on saturday, he said he was going to come to the house to pick up the rest of his clothes early this week and would call me. I didn't hear from him during the day but had a gut feeling that he was going to come here while i was at work anyways. Which irritates me that he does that and i told him that.
He left a note on the counter and i'm trying everything in my DB strength not to text him or contact him. i feel like he is expecting it and i typically have.
i also don't understand why...if he was coming to get the rest of his clothes why the closet still has half his stuff in it and the drawers are half full. I try not to read into anything he does but i do know for certain if i knew i didn't want to be with him, i would get all my stuff out of here asap. i don't understand why he does this...takes a handful of things and thats it. if i wanted out i would get all this sh*t done so i didn't have to have contact......arggghhhh
don't text him dont text him.....
I feel that my head has been in a pretty good place the last few days. i know in my heart i have to let him go and i know if we are meant to be we will. my gut tells me we aren't over and this isn't the end of our story and my gut has been right about a whole lot. I am at peace with that at the moment. I've been practicing yoga alot and working out and emersing myself in school. i feel happier that i have in a while. i miss him like crazy and this isn't what i want but i have to be at peace with whats going on.
i also feel that i can't be angry anymore. i feel that being angry only hurts me. I also feel that if i am to move on (whether that is with him or without him) i have to forgive him at some point and i can't forgive if i'm angry.
