I will start my own thread soon. Yes, I agree that love is a choice. And I agree that we can CHOOSE to stay in the M regardless of our partners actions.
BUT...
You can only do that for so long. You can only feel unloved, unwanted and uncared for so long at which point it becomes survival.
There are no retakes in life. I wanted to make it work with my W but it just wasn't happening. So I want to make sure my life is spent loving AND BEING LOVED!
Yes I am unsure and sad and surviving... I still feel like a LBS.
But I will not allow myself to be controlled by the fear any longer. I'm taking charge of my own happiness because I have learned that no matter how much I wanted things to work, they would only have worked with both of us loving.
Have a wonderful night...
M: 42 - W: 41 - M: 18 - T: 23 - D:16 S:14 EA - July 2010 NC w/EA - Nov 2010 Piecing - Jan 2011 I ask for div - Jan 2012 Div papers filed - Mar 2012 I move out - July 2012 Divorce final - Nov 7, 2012
