Am I going to just lose my mind, or will this get better?
it gets better. But you seem to think you have only two options with your anger.
Either repress it or express it, and both have downsides.
Let it go...turn it over to God. May sound weird or gimmicky but I found when I showered (so kids could not hear)
that thinking it, saying it and hearing it out loud, helped it sink in...
I said it A LOT.
Turning over my pain and anger over to HIM, helped Me let go of it.
I don't think exposing your h to it for long, will help you nor do I find him totally responsible for your reaction. You have to own some of this or you'll be giving someone else all your power. Plus He is in a good place now and that's a gift you were given.
I think there's a reason that the words "from this day forward" are in our marriage vows.
Let go of the past...it holds you back from enjoying the present.
& Hang in there
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
