You want him back on your terms, not his. Remember that, you don't want him back if he's going to do this again. You don't want him back if he's going to continue to flirt with other women on the side and tell you it's OK. You don't want him back if he's going to manipulate you and put you down. You need to get to a place where he wants you more than you want him. If he "takes you back" you'll find yourself here again. You want him to feel you are taking him back.
Accuray
Married 18, Together 20, Now Divorced M: 48, W: 50, D: 18, S: 16, D: 12 Bomb Dropped (EA, D): 7/13/11 Start Reconcile: 8/15/11 Bomb Dropped (EA, D): 5/1/2014 (Divorced) In a New Relationship: 3/2015
