WAW told me she doesn't want to be married pt3

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Gabby

Your right I might have gotten them up. After we left lunch I just thought this was a good baby step and that's all it was. I guess hearing that set me back some. But after some thought I got over it and have to move forward. There are still some baby steps to take. We are just walking two separate paths that may or may not cross.
This happened a little today. We have been chatting all day on aim joking with each other then she emails me financial questions. Which sent mood down some. But this is what needs to get done. Her comment was Tell me your thoughts on how to work this. For right now since alot is up in the air we just have to work things out the best we can.
We are compromising well and dividing up what needs to be. Still all [censored]. Both of us are going to be hurting when all is said and done. If I change jobs then I will be hurting more. Looking at a pay cut.

I feel I am ready to start talking with another woman. I am still emotionally attached to my W. I just miss the contact sitting and talking with someone for hours. Obviously she is the one I want to sit and talk with but that's not happening.
I don't want revenge because honestly I am not really seeing anyone on the sites that is as pretty as my W. The women that are contacting me I am not interested in and the ones I contact don't get back to me. I admit I am ok looking but my W is very pretty and is in great shape for have 2 kids.
Whole sitch stinks and this is my life now. I am coming out of this a better man just need to find that certain someone again or them to find me.
Now I am just babbling. So done.