waiting for the tides to change

[BFloat]

Thank you James and Wendy for hearing me.

I have been completely stuck for days. I am just counting down the time until I am with my kids again. I need to see them to put everything back into perspective.

I have been trying to detach but obviously unsuccessfully because it's true, I am so affected on H's actions or inactions. I obsess on what he says and what he does... I am so desperate to see something change and yet it never happens. And it had left me completely drained and a shadow of my former self.

I truly need to find happiness for myself and for my kids apart from H because I'm going to drown if i don't. My kids deserve better. My kids deserve more. If H is not willing to give that to them, then I have every intention of doing so.

I just need to get home and see them.