Great contact most of last week. She did a fair amount of initiating. I find myself getting angry at her for making the decisions she made. Anyway, I still want to be with her more than anything. In the grand scheme of it all, we are still talking civilly, have seen each other a few times, and she expressed some interest in coming by again soon. I've been working on the house a lot and making some good progress. I've pretty much finished two rooms and getting ready to move on to another.
Anyway, she spent the weekend with boyfriend. We had some terrible storms last night with tornado warnings. I woke up and all i could think about was how the sirens always scared her and that it was not me there to comfort her. It made me really sad, but what can I do. We have talked a little bit today. I initiated it b/c I just couldn't help it. It went well though. Told her about working on the house and at the end she just said "nifty!" so i figured that was a good place to end it.
I made another appointment with my DB coach for Wednesday. It's been about 3 weeks since I spoke with her, and lots has happened since then so I'm hoping that she will have some advice on how to handle the situation going forward.
I've had some really low points lately, but I'm getting through them. It's not over until I say it is. I am still 100% committed to trying to work this out. i don't always take the right steps but I'm getting better at it. Thanks guys!
