Quick update - Intellectually I know it is over. Emotionally I am still a wreck.
Went to the house yesterday to get my stuff. Rented a truck. Ended up taking less than I had thought. I couldn't leave her without pots and pans, dishes, blow dryer, etc. All stuff that was mine but I know she doesn't have. I even left the bed I bought last month.
Talked it over with my father who sometimes has OK advice. Told me not to be petty. Follow my conscious. In the big picture what is a couple grand. Be the better person. etc. etc.
Made one mistake and read her journal. She still loves me. Misses me very much. At least last week she did in her last entry. She is on some kind of quest to find herself. Who she really is. She wants to focus on herself for a while. Not sure if this is easier then if I had read she hates me and was cheating on me.
Not sure I'll post anymore in here since I'm technically not DBing. I'll leave that to the people who are. Have an appoint with doc tomorrow to have meds refilled. I'm eating better but am still real depressed. I can't believe I gave her the power she has over me. My boys are so upset. They miss her and her son very much. My oldest cried for about 15 minutes the other night. So sad. - Jack
