It is good that you recognize your reasons as possibly being punitive. Work on that and dig in to see how you might change that perspective. What's causing it? What anger or fear might still be harbored?
Those are great questions that I will have to figure out.
You and I seem to be running parallels right now.
You know, I tend to focus on the great times my W and I had together and overlook the bad. When she dropped the bomb, I was unhappy with our M/R as well for a couple of reasons.
So even though my goal has been to reconcile, I do wonder if my life will be better if we go our separate ways. Like I really have a choice right now.
I'm just thinking out loud here. I am not ready to throw in the towel just yet.
Me:45 ExW:48 M:04/97 3 Bombs & 2 ReCons 1st BD 11/10 D Finalized 4/20 D-16 S-14 Going in one more round when you don't think you can. That's what makes all the difference in life.~Rocky Balboa
