So you'll have to bear with me as I know I shouldn't care/have the right to care but I am having a really difficult moment.
My ex has been talking with the POW via: Skype. And he never speaks to me on there.
It just kills me.
And it solidifies that the most like have at the very least and EA.
And I don't know whether she is staying in the Middle East after he returns, or if she is already back in Canada.
As I said, I know I should care, but this realization made my heart beat so fast I thought it was going to explode. Hot rushes went to my head and tears were burning my eyes that I am trying desperately to fight off as I am at work right now.
I feel like up-chucking.
God I hate this.
I almost would rather know for sure one way or the other, you know what I mean? (whether they are having an actual affair that is going to be continued in Canada).
I find milestones are useful for making 'internal' decisions within ones' self.
