Too Little, Too Late.... part 4

[purgatory]

My brain likes to play conversations and interactions over and over again, looking for positives or changes.... Someone make it stop! I know it's not good to do.

I noticed a new behavior from him adding up over our past few face to face interactions.... Guy's opinions here would be really helpful too.

[background: H said he wasn't attracted to me when he dropped the bomb. I had already been trying to loose weight, but the bomb sent it into overdrive. I've lost almost 20 pounds in 2 months. I've always been top heavy (H loved it) and now with the weight gone around my waist, I look even *more* top heavy...]

H has been checking me out when I talk to him, almost like I want to remind him that my eyes aren't 'down there'. Several times I've caught him doing this- mostly we are at our house, but he did it the other day in the parking lot whil we were switching kids. He also reached over one time and pulled up the zipper to my neck on my hoodie, so no cleavage would be showing (for the record, it wasn't showing anymore than I ever wore it before!) So in one hand he's checking me out, and then in the same interaction, he's covering me up.

Is this cause he really doesn't want to see me, or is it because he *wants* to see me. (this sounds very shallow, but since I've been told that my body had become an issue over the last 6 months- this could be a great confidence booster to me)
Either way, I will continue down my path of looking better to feel better about myself. That little part of me would be glad to know that he's seeing what he's gonna miss