Purg - we got home from the Pats game both emotionally exhausted but what a sweet victory...now we head to the SB to get our revenge on the hated Giants!
BTW I had to DB so much at the game....so many pre bomb memories were surfacing and I spent so many moments swallowing my emotions, acting "as if", and really resisting thd urge to temp check our M.
I was so wanting the prebomb days of sharing a room....not for a physical encounter...but just the simple joy of hearing her breath in the night.
Thank god I can talk and vent to you guys...prayer works for strength...but I need someone to talk to when I feel this way...and in her current state of healing...it can't be her.
Here I was in the midst of 70,000 insanely happy fans and next to my W and. no one new the inner torment I was feeling.
nonetheless I'm not blind to the fact that we can do these dates...and she is healing
