waiting for the tides to change

[purgatory]

(((BF)))

I don't think I'll have the right words for you.... but I hope that just knowing someone is out there thinking of you helps.

You find yourself by looking in your children's eyes. Our kids get all the greatest parts of us- you're *true* self is in them. I know that you aren't with them right now, and that's hard in itself. The next time you're playing with them, notice all the funny things they say or do, how they interact with each other, how they show affection.... *you* gave them all those qualities. They are a reflection of all the strength, love and hope you have in yourself.

Feeling lost and uncertain of myself is something I struggle with everyday as well. This tragedy has challenged everything I ever thought I knew about myself. Not sure of your religious beliefs (i'm not religious, just faithful), a very close friend of mine told me something that has helped give me a new perspective:
"Sometimes God has to break your will and break you down, so that His will can take over." I've been trying to give up the fight for control over this sitch. 25 said on my post that she often said out loud: "God, I turn over this marriage to you."


Someone on this board posted this on their thread a while back, sorry for not being able to properly give them credit:
"To be truly free in life takes either tragedy or courage. To my children I certainly recommend the latter. Unfortunately for lots of us it takes tragedy. But that tragedy can be either a rite of passage or something that will break you.”
Christopher Reeves

We can't let it break us for the sake of our kids.

You are never alone. ((BF))