Labug- I appreciate you taking time to get caught up.... Today was a new kind of rough. Thanks so much for the alanon stuff! I've copied it and put it in my ongoing DB file smile I've considered going to an Alanon meeting....

111: They ARE soooooo yummy and super easy! H and S6 use them as finger food and dip them in syrup smile

Tonight........
I had a small breakdown. H has been texting all night asking about the baby- I take this as a positive. We even talked back and forth about a project he's been working on, he asked my opinion smile so it put me in a nostalgic mood.....

My poor little man, has a fever, won't eat and can't sleep well.... I was rocking him to hopefully get him to sleep, and singing his lullaby: "Smile", by Charlie Chaplin. As I was singing it, the lyrics hit me in a new way- and I started crying while trying to sing- but the baby was able to sleep. The song has a new meaning for me now that I'm going through this sitch....

Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it’s breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
you’ll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You’ll see the sun come shining through
for you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness Although a tear may be ever so near
That’s the time you must keep on trying
Smile what’s the use of crying
You’ll find that life is still worthwhile
If you’ll just
Smile


M-31, H-31
T-9, M-7
S-6, s-20mth
sep 8/1/11
ILYNILWY 11/29/11
Creating separation papers.
Discover H has feelings for BFF, she does too 1/11/12
H moves out 1.20.12