111- I really hope it's gotten something churning in him.... He seemed a little shocked then I said that I didn't want him anymore.... maybe the reality of not having me is sinking in. Up until now, I believe he felt that I would still be there waiting for him.... maybe I should 'stage a date'? A friend of mine has a brother whose a little younger than me, but he might play along smile

Kolja- It's a harsh reality to think that you might *not want* them back. You and I both came here around the same time, so it's only been a couple months of DBing, but maybe these feelings we've been having, are the first steps to true detachment? I've heard people say that when they finally accept that the M is really over and approach every interaction in a detached way- that the WAS gets a little nervous.

I can feel a change of acceptance coming over me... it feels strange, but I'm ok.


M-31, H-31
T-9, M-7
S-6, s-20mth
sep 8/1/11
ILYNILWY 11/29/11
Creating separation papers.
Discover H has feelings for BFF, she does too 1/11/12
H moves out 1.20.12