Together since we were 15...Part 2

[purgatory]

Dreams are no fun.... they are showing us our greatest fears. But just remember, that it was JUST a dream, not what's doing right now.

I'm impressed that you had the b@lls to tell him "esp that I'm not closed off to it". That had to be a nice dose of reality for him. It's like you told me: Dating others is just something they've only had to speculate about, it will become harder when it's a reality.

I don't know about you, but I'm not ready to date. Even if I decide that I don't want H back, I'm not sure when I feel ready to be vulnerable on the dating scene again- esp now that I have kids involved. I mean, I've already done the 'be cute and flirty' dating thing- it sucked even back then!! H and I met though a college study group (I ran him over while I running late to class- our first words were: m:"sorry about that!" h:"it's ok, you can get off me now.")and we both were still in other Rs, the pressure to 'perform' wasn't there.

I don't know that I have the confidence of a 20 year old (and I sure as he!! don't have that body anymore!) to put myself out there like that!