You know, each time he does these 'alien' things, it makes it easier to detach.
Bklyn, I've been having the 'why do I want him' thoughts a lot. I can say that I don't want *this* man, but the man that I know he can be.... But who's to say that the one I know will ever come back?

I called D16 to wish her luck, and she cried saying how she missed me and loved me- that was really hard! I told her how much I wish I could be with her today (yet another heartbreak caused by H and OW!)

I need to have a civil R with him as we move on into coparenting for the next 18ish years, so it's important that we don't burn any bridges. I think the fact that this is all still so fresh for me, is why I still long for our M. Who knows when that will change.

Thank you all for coming to my rescue this morning! These are the times I really wish some of y'all were just a phone call away instead of waiting for online responses.... But I'll take it!!

We aren't supposed to see H until Wednesday, that's what I have to plan for... Even though he says he'll come by before then- we'll see smirk


M-31, H-31
T-9, M-7
S-6, s-20mth
sep 8/1/11
ILYNILWY 11/29/11
Creating separation papers.
Discover H has feelings for BFF, she does too 1/11/12
H moves out 1.20.12