im REALLLY anxious about today. H is coming up to the house to discuss some finances and house stuff. Our last face to face was so bad (tears and fighting). I don't want that again. Since then i have made my way through DB book and have been taking a lot of notes from these boards. i am planning my stance for this evening and it goes like this: being calm and cheerful, dressed to ready to go out after he leaves i'm meeting up with a few friends - (so looking good), NO R TALK, ducking into the washroom to regroup i feel like i'm slipping back into my old ways of trying to tell him he is wrong and what he is doing is completely irrational. WISH ME LUCK!!
Since wednesday, i feel a little more comfortable in the fact that i need to let him go. And i need to spend that time to work on me and he has to sort himself out. He hasn't been alone with his thoughts in 3 months (he's been working pretty hard at avoiding them) and i think him moving out into a (very lonely) apartment is going to make him finally have to stop and think. OW doesn't live in the province so its not like she'll be over there all the time either and i take a small bit of comfort in that.
Looking for any suggestions on how to handle tonight!!!
