Together since we were 15...Part 2

[purgatory]

I'm enjoying the conversation too.... wish we could get together for some "wine and whines" Our kids would probably get a long too!

Yes, there is OW... and.... she's my BFF! Well, not anymore.

You should read my thread- this all came to light last wednesday (the 11th, my oldest's birthday... I'm not doing well with this AT ALL!) There's a lot of details and history of our friendship that help explain why this is SO much worse than just a 'stranger' OW

I've been trying to GAL, and I've tried to make some new friends with women who were just casual friends before, I tried a new church and I liked it.... I've also got some plans for the future- because I have to schedule big events on "my" every-other-weekend.

I'm hoping that the 'space' factor will help his anger/resentment to subside... but now with the OW, he has no need to let anything go because he'll get what he needs from her.... vomit!! I've been obsessed with the thoughts that he won't come back no matter what I do on my end, because OW knows what broke us up- so she'll make sure never to do those things.

On top of all the emotional turmoil, I've still got my health issues, and it's not looking so good. H still comes to my appointments, but I don't understand his motivation for that- he doesn't hug, hold my hand to comfort when I'm scared. I kinda feel like I'm his prized cow that he takes to the vet to make sure she'll still produce... The only value (I feel) that he has for me, is to make sure I'm around to take care of the kids- esp. since he's leaving in 5 months UGGGGGHHHHH!