"It was like watching a caged lion, and his anger and resenent (that was feeding his need for the breakup) was still there everyday because he couldn't get away from me."
Exactly! Space can do wonders for healing and clearing your head. I remember less than a week after he moved out I called him over here because S was coughing at night and waking up constantly and I had been up for 22 hours solid (heartbreak-induced insomnia, gotta love it) and I needed sleep. Of course another reason was that I MISSED the hell out of him and wanted him over here. Of course once he got here S was fine, and I jumped straight into pursuing, begging, crying. He had had a few beers, and he was MAD. He looked me straight in the eye and said, "NOBODY will control me ever again. I do what I want." I was shocked. He had NEVER spoken to me like that before. I was also shocked by the sheer immaturity of the statement. He has denied the anger since then, but I know it's still there. The space has helped him to cool down and it's caused him to miss me. He couldn't miss me if he was still here day in and day out. He doesn't deny having a lot of resentment towards me. That's what he says he's having the hardest time letting go of. Time. Time will help with that if he allows it to.
There is a *her*? I'm sorry That explains why he's not telling you that there's hope for you two someday. He's in a fog. I've been there myself, and I remember being in the fog. It did not clear until I saw J moving on from me. Once I found out about that, the OM lost his allure. I know he has hung out with a girl he had a crush on at least once. I try to keep it out of my mind, which is very hard to do. As well as I feel I'm doing, given the circumstances, he is never far from my mind He's shared that it's the same way with him. He says he misses watching all of our special shows with me. He feels weird watching movies without me.
How are you doing? Are you feeling any stronger and like you're bettering yourself?
My thread is always slow. I'm enjoying the conversation
M & H 25 T 9 D 7 S 4 Bomb 11/11 Confused about feelings for me. Bomb 12/11 ILYBNILWY, moved out 2-1-12 We're exclusive & dating each other. 3-4-12 H moved back in. 3-31-12 I deserve better. I'm done
That explains why he's not telling you that there's hope for you two someday. He's in a fog. I've been there myself, and I remember being in the fog. It did not clear until I saw J moving on from me. Once I found out about that, the OM lost his allure. I know he has hung out with a girl he had a crush on at least once. I try to keep it out of my mind, which is very hard to do. As well as I feel I'm doing, given the circumstances, he is never far from my mind 
