Pur, I wasn't leaving b/c I thought since I wasn't actively seeking a recon. I should post here.

I am leaving b/c it seems like I am only coming across as some needy thing who is waiting for my SO to walk through the door, say he's sorry and carry me to the bedroom.

After all I've written, it is MOST CERTAINLY NOT the case.

I feel as if I am being misjudged, and frankly I don't like it. I am trying really hard here to try and do the right things in a really WEIRD situation. If coming on here and reading certain posts makes me feel angry rather than reflective or even soothed, then what is the point?

I also feel as if people are much more quick for me to just move out and end this since we are not married.

I am quite sure that if I was writing this and had told everyone I was married, the opinions would be much different.

I DO NOT think that a piece of paper makes what we are going through any different. I'm sorry, I just don't.

So that is all.

But I do HOPE YOU all the best. Your situation really pisses me off and I hope so much for you and your H to have a happy, healthy recon where you both appreciate and love one another as you deserve to be.