Thanks again!!! I am so lost and letting myself down. She had me broken down again last night. She has so much anger and distrust and I don't reallly blame her.

I have a couple of great days and start to see her respond in somewhat positive ways, but it seems like she is just being nice to be able to ease out without confrontation. I really have to quit worrying about her motives or what it is that helps her have a good day.

I can go two or three days and then I pull some puppy dog crap and come across as begging and grovelling and apologizing for my part in all of this.

we talked about her going on a short vacation to get some time to herself to think about things. She said she would like that so she is going to stay at a hotel for 3 or 4 days and take some vacation time from work.

I am also trying to give her time to get away from the house a night or two during the week to take some time for herself to just be.

The problem here is that she is finally communicating with me. It's not what I want to hear and the things she says cause me a lot of guilt and resentment, but at least she is talking, right?

Should I shy away from discussions with her? Should I just make myself unavailable? I am trying to get this DB thing and I just seem to take a step forward and two steps back.

I need to quit overthinking all of this stuff. I feel like I should assume its over and just get on with life but something keeps pulling me back.


H 36, W 35, M 15
S 11
D 7
Bomb 08/03/2011
2nd Bomb 01/04/2012
3rd Bomb 04/26/2012
Divorced 07/23/2012